Gratefully Original



 

I seem to tend to take time for granted, it seems as if I let time tick away as I chase the next dollar. And sometimes I forget to slow down and just enjoy living. Our time is mostly consumed with thinking about bills, working to pay bills, anything for a dollar bill. But when you die, you cannot take the money with you. I seem to let all the beautiful scenery, and wonders of the world pass me by, in order to survive. Now I see that time is only what you make it, in reality we make time. Now I live in the moment, and live for this time, not next time.



Now on the other hand there are numberous things I am grateful for...I could name them all but as this list would be too extensive I will only list a few. To start off I am grateful to wake up in my nice bed, in the beautiful country of America. I am grateful for all of my freedoms. I'm grateful to be able to work, and not only that, but work for more than minimum wage. I am blessed with all of these amazing opportunities, as well as the natural abilities that God has given me. My friends and family, who have stood by me, through the best of times and the worst of times. The people who believed in me most, even when I didn't believe in myself. The fact I am a middle class citizen, I say this because I could never imagine how hard it is to live in a third world country, or even go through some of the struggles that I see in this country on a regular basis... There are some truly amazing individuals in this world. Lastly, but definitely not least I am thankful for my health. If I get sick, I could do something as easy as go to the hospital and treat whatever's wrong with me. I can go and get checked up whenever I want, to prevent any future illness, and for that I am most grateful.

Upon further reflection I see sometimes, as in Ferris Bueller's Day Off, "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once and a while, you could miss it.". I now propose a challenge to myself, a personal homework assignment, if you will. I'm aiming to refrain from using my phone, or any form of social media for the next week. In this I am to experience the world, and all the little things in it that more often than not, go unnoticed. Within the timeframe, I see myself bonding with my natural self, and hopefully restoring my faith in humanity.  I encourage you to try this as well.

Haiku? I do!

Cool breeze and hot rays

Spring showers on summer days

Everything is good

 

Money In The Bank

My whole family is fed

Food on the table

 

Seed in the garden

It grows until it blossoms

A star is now born

 

god is my shepherd

and Jesus is my savior 

I will make them proud

 

Art in every minute

I can not afford to waste

seconds on the clock

 

The land of the free

The home of the hamburger

diabetes kills

 

Who really killed Pac

was it Puffy and Biggie?

Pac is still alive!?

 

 

Fear and Loathing in Massachusetts

 

Fear. One of those things that seems to only be there to test ones character. Whether it be fear of change, conflict, or even something as small as a spider, overcoming that fear is what makes you or well.... breaks you. I once read that "fear comes from uncertainty" now let that resonate for a moment. If you look back on your own fears I'm sure in one way or another this quote holds truth, I mean maybe not the spider (there just scary looking) but real fear is commonly just caused by clouded thoughts of the unknown. A moment where you knew it was a good idea but the fear of failure held you back from accomplishing your goal. To this all I can say is man up!.

 

 

Now I'm not saying have no fear, fear is an amazing tool when channeled properly but, weighing the consequence for you actions is as well. For instance when riding motor cross a few years back, I noticed that my fear itself was transforming into adrenaline the more I rode. The more terrifying the stunt, the more I was "in the zone" if you will. My senses more aware, more in tune with the bike and its movements, truly one with the moment. Although fear was a great tool then, if I had not overcame my original fear of failure when first learning to ride the bike, I would have never experienced the amazing things I did. In a sense you just have to use it to your advantage and own it.

 

 

Even though I do know how to use my fear, I still seem to have problems overcoming some aspect in my own life. The biggest regret. I just don't want to say I never did it or that I did it wrong for that matter. For example I fear marriage or even commitment, not because of the life I would live, but instead questions like is she the right one? would I have met that one if I wasn't with her? will this even work out? Death is another big one, not death itself but I just don't want to die to early regretting the life I lived,even everyday decisions weigh heavy on my day to day. In my mind every move controls my future no way to overcome this I just move on, go with the flow, and hope I always make the right decisions....or at least learn from the wrong ones.

 

 

 

"Only Thing That I Fear Is God And Weddings"

 

Man in the mirror,

I'm staring at my problems

Nobody around

cause they got up and they got it         

I use it as motivation,

fuel to all this energy

Refuse to let my inner fears

stop me from my destiny

Pen to the paper,

getting to this paper

Headed to the top,

(escalator)

need to get it now never later

Running from my past,

but a dreams what I'm chasing

On the way to make it

(no we ain't never waiting)

see a fork in the road, road full of potholes

Where will I end up?

(Nope)

I do not know

 running through my life

life is just a race

Eyes open, full speed,

Turnin fear into my faith

losing not an option

Blood sweat and tears

are all I've ever known

only thing to interfere

(was the fear)

of becoming like my father an my family

fear turned to courage, poverty prosperity

moments after moments culminating to a clarity

its cheating that I fear when I say the words marry me

only thing left that I fear is the death

before I make it to the top guess I fear regret.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Knowledge speaks Wisdom listens

I find myself entering into a shift in life... Everything I once believed challenged, every path I thought I would once lead left untraveled,  new goals, new ideas, and new hopes. Yet throughout this change I am still torn between dreams and reality. With dreams of change, I dream of a world not worried with greed, and power.Instead a world of peace, and prosperity. A perfect world in which everyman, woman, and child doing there part as an equal, paying for nothing but working for nothing as well. Not working towards power, but instead to accomplish a goal he or she has decided to pursue, jobs chosen out of love not survival. In this world we could accomplish amazing things, traverse the universe, tap into untapped internal resources, even find an answer to that age old question in life "why are we here".

Then steps in reality, the reality that the powers at be would never give up said power in the first place. I mean who can blame them right?. Seems like the "1%" does have a pretty good thing going if I don't say myself, but what if they did. What if one day this world went through a similar shift as in myself, or even your taste buds for instance. Could we handle it?. I believe we not only could, but need to if we plan on continued preservation of our race. No not separate races but the human race as a collective. The moment people open there eyes to not see skin color or cultural and religious differences the world will be a much better place.

It seems as if every person that can help change this however doesn't want too, and who wants to does not have the power to do so. That being said and after much thought and deliberation, I have decided to follow a field in politics. As my late grandfather would say "if you want something done right you do it yourself", and so following these words once so frequently uttered, I embark on my journey. Feeling as if I finally found my calling and if not still eager to see where fate will bring me ...constantly just going with the flow.

The World Around Me

When I stop I notice beauty in simplicity and nature
the song of life whispers but yet most shall never listen
from the wind against the chimes nightly ringing from my neighbors
to the morning dew on blades of grass reflecting sun to glisten

When I stop I notice birds chirping songs instead of racket
the howling hounds of night become quite calming and relaxing
the way the snow falls bellowing over houses turning land from bland
to ice castles and igloos in a winter wonderland

When I stop I notice the world slower and more vibrant
a different sound in everything even slightly heard in silence
an orchestra of universe the song heard through the stars
everything connected moving without sight of pause

When I am in the moment the world becomes mine in mind
I see what once was lost when worried with space and time
slow it down and breath I heard and followed into viewing
the world from different light not stuck in shells of humans

When I am in the moment not worried with taking pictures
my texts my phone my media woman money drugs or liquor
I see the bigger picture I see the world as whole
everything in unison working to achieve a goal!